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New beginnings

May 25, 2018
It's amazing how a new home can make a world of a difference in my life. I recently moved to a place that I'm familiar with and ironically the same city that my mother and I grew up in. For some reason, it felt right to go back home. It's a fresh start for me, a safe place where I already feel comfortable living. I really do feel blessed being here and grateful for everything. Within days of moving, I obtained a freelance job which was a wonderful surprise. Perfect timing too, I can use the funds to pay for things that I need, like a new toaster or food for the cats.

Downsizing from a house to a small apartment has forced me to learn to let go of things and truly decide what's important to me. It also meant bringing the bare minimum of essentials and funnily enough, I'm still missing some things or realizing that I should've brought a blender or more mixing bowls. Living here has given me a lot of independence that I desperately needed and has forced me to be uber savvy when it comes to storing my stuff. It was a bit of a shock when it came to unloading, literally, 40 years worth of my life into an apartment. Once I took everything out of the boxes and put the majority away, I stood back and looked at how different everything seemed. 



Living here is not cheap, and I've had to forgo the phone and cable hookups to save money. That's fine, I'm perfectly content watching shows on Netflix and iTunes via the internet. I recently stumbled across a movie entitled, "The Theory of Everything" which was based on the life of Professor Stephen Hawking, living with Lou Gehrig's disease. A couple of years ago, my mother had seen it and really enjoyed it. In fact, she tried to encourage me to watch it. At that time, I was not at all comfortable viewing it, most likely because it would've reminded me of the pain and physical limitations that Mom went through. It felt too close to home and I wasn't ready. 

I took a chance and started watching it, fully prepared to walk away from it when it got too much for me. I was pleasantly surprised, and more than anything, I was blown away by the realistic performance of Eddie Redmayne (Fantastic Beasts and where to find them). The more I was drawn into the story, the more I realized why Mom liked it so much. She was able to relate to it on many levels, she too had physical disabilities and deformities that limited her ability to enjoy life the she wanted. She often felt trapped and essentially betrayed by her body, just like Stephen. I can remember how frustrated she would get, not being able to do the things that everyone took for granted. 



This film offered an accurate viewpoint and deep reflection of what it was like for Mom. Even though she did not have ALS, she went through a similar phase of her body changing and gradually defeating her. It wouldn't let her go where her mind and soul wanted. To me, it suddenly opened up a new perspective of her life.  

I understood why it meant so much to her. As I watched Stephen Hawking stumble, struggling to drag his useless legs across the floor, I started crying because it was eerily similar to what Mom went through. I knew how difficult it was for her to do simple things and saw how much she struggled. But it was not the same as living with it. My scope of truly understanding of what she went through on a daily basis, scratched the surface of the depth of her disability. While I too, had a physical disability, it was very different than hers. But we found a way to balance each other out, if she needed to go anywhere, I was able to drive her or do physical chores outdoors. Whereas, she would make a phone call on my behalf since I couldn't hear or provided sign language at a noisy venue. 



It's all about perspectives, learning to see things from a different angle. That's where I am now, discovering a new  aspect of my life, where everything is exciting. I have no idea where it will lead me, but at least I'm happy. 


 

Moving forward

April 9, 2018
As I move forward to new beginnings in my life, I've become more aware of how my daily experiences, particularly with a hearing loss, have become valuable lessons for me. 

Every single one of us goes through this every day, it's how we grow and evolve as human beings. It's how we discover our strengths and weaknesses, through the situations we face on a regular basis. Whether it's during our commute, at work, during sports or at home, there is always something for us to learn. 

It can be the sm...
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Making a difference

February 22, 2018


As I finalize the details of my upcoming trip, I’m going over every aspect of it to ensure that I receive the necessary assistance for a (mostly) smooth trip. Invariably, there will always be a hiccup along the way, such as delays or that someone forgot I had a disability. Yes, I do have a disability, I don’t sugarcoat it by saying things like “I’m more able than disabled”.  Even though my profound hearing loss is invisible, it’s very real and a huge obstacle for me to overcome on...

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Thank you Nyle

February 19, 2018



After a day of rain, the snow is finally melting. It’s a nice change to watch the fog rise in the air, and I can see the ground again, a sign that spring is on it’s way. I’ve grown tired of the huge mounds of snow on my driveway that were as tall as my small car. The amount of ice and snow we had this year was beyond ridiculous.

During a break this morning, I took a look at my social media feed and came across a trending, hot topic. Deaf model and dancer, Nyle DiMarco, tweeted about h...


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Symbol of Hope

February 11, 2018




As the snow continues to fall outside during another winter storm, I’ve been spending time on Pinterest looking for new Supergirl wallpapers to use on my tablet. Yes, I’ll admit that I love that show, for so many personal reasons. I think it’s because I can relate to her. As someone with a hearing loss, I’m always searching for inspiration, someone to look up to and I find  that she is a great choice. 

Even though Supergirl is incredibly strong, fearless and determined to help others, ...

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Matters of the heart

January 22, 2018


This past weekend has been unusually warm with temperatures hovering above 5C along with beautiful sunshine. It was a welcome reprieve to the bone chilling temperatures at minus 25C and a ridiculous amount of snow. Because of the warm weather, much of the deep snow has melted, I can now view the grass peeking through in the front field and actually see my driveway. Although that might not last very long, since there is another storm headed this way with freezing rain. To me, that's a fun phot...
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Renewed Hope

January 3, 2018




So far I'm not impressed with the beginning of 2018. It has already been a frustrating week and it's only the second day of January.  Mind you, it has nothing to do with going back to my regular routine after a week-long holiday break. My body was screaming at me to take time off, wanting to heal some old injuries that came back with a vengeance. I took that opportunity to have some quiet time, do some reading and photography which I enjoy. This was a necessity so that I didn’t lose my mind...

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New dawn

December 14, 2017

As I sit in the yellow chair, sipping on candy cane flavoured coffee, my eyes fall on to the large beam of sunlight on the lilac wall. It's projecting a shadow of a nearby tree. The branches shake and shimmer in the wind, dancing to a tune of it's own. It's moments like this that I cherish these days. Time seems to slow down momentarily, giving me a chance to catch my breath and watch the shadows stretch across the snowy landscape as the sun begins to set early in the afternoon. 

Luna, my late...
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Stronger

November 16, 2017


After seeing the latest Jake Gyllenhaal movie, Stronger, I walked away with a profound sense of recognition. I immediately connected with him, particularly at the point when he realizes the impact that he is having on others, simply by being determined to stay strong. Like many of us in the theatre, I left with tears in my eyes and struggled to maintain my composure in such a public place.

Mind you, there were numerous moments throughout the movie where I disagreed with the...


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Passengers

October 5, 2017

The last few months have proven to be an incredible challenge for me on many levels, particularly after the death of my mother. I've been doing a lot of soul searching, trying to figure out where I fit in and how to utilize my skills. I'm continuing to evolve and change as I go through this new journey. 

While my hearing loss has defined me and given me opportunities to adapt and grow as a person. It has also forced me to come out of my comfort zone, especially since I'm quite shy, and to come...
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